The Modern Age.

Besides having a killer tooth ach 2 days in a row now, I've found my happy place deep within myself. I've been letting everything and everyone around me bother my emotional system and It really started to tear me down. I let go of that happy fun person I know I am. Stress and heart ach usually breaks me at the seams. I've always been this girl who cared about everything and everyone.. what "he" was going through, what "she" had to deal with.. but on top of it all I started worrying about what I had to go through and deal with. which is new for me. I've always just blocked that part out. but I've realized that Im a very important part of my life and the way I live it. Unfort. I need to step away from a few issues thats making me sad. I need to stay positive in order to have a good outlook on life.

I've always been told that i'm a very negative person and I always blamed that on what I had to go through as a child and I never tried to see things in a positive outlook or change i've only held on to the past and used that as an excuse. So for the past year i've been thinking about everything in positive light but i've mixed in "high expectations" with that so its been very confusing. So when im let down, because I was way to excited and positive about something it sucks. My friend told me the other day to "always go into something with the worst outlook, so at the end your not disapointed" but dosent that make you a bitter person who just dosent care about anything? thats not me.


ps. Mary kate is small but adorable.